Topic: It's the 'new' me ...

[HeilanWoman]

Jesus!

So does that mean that particular drug is out for you?  I would assume so. 

God, lady, you've got such a better attitude than I would have.  I'd be whining so loud they'd kick me the frig out of here. 

Stay strong, kid, and you will get through this.

[sas]

I spent today (about 7.5 hours) in the emergency room. 

Oh no!! I'm so glad you are home, but that had to suck majorly. Are you done with Chemo at this point?

[Barbara :-)]

I have 3 more chemo treatments, which will take me to the end of the year .. I get them every 3 weeks.
I still have a long haul getting over this round; I now have other drugs to take for 4 days to counteract the allergic reaction;
to top it off my oncologist is on vacation this week. 

I want to stop the chemo as I'm so over this pain but if it's to 'make me better' and to 'make sure all the cancer' gets killed, then I
have to tolerate the side effects.

[sas]

I wish I could give you some comfort. All I can think of is a quote from the Never Ending Story "It's got to hurt if it's to heal". Personally, I would rather have the luck dragon than the pain (always loved that character).

I have no personal basis for what you are going through. I have a friend and colleague who I admire greatly. When I was in CA we had a day to ourselves to catch up. She told me about her Chemo treatments (breast cancer). She said that she had gotten to the point that she didn't want to go and was throwing childish (her words though I doubt it knowing the type of person she is) tantrums with lots of crying and refused to go. Her husband decided to take matters in his own hands and would bodily throw her over his shoulder and bring her to the car and take her to the treatments. She got through it. She looks back at the experience as a true indicator of her personal strength. 

Oh, and she is still very happily married to her husband just in case you were wondering...

[banail cath]

Don't worry about taking pain pills, you take whatever you really need to to get you through- strawberries, bubble baths, chocolate, fancy lingerie...

*makes scary nasty snarly face at new chemo drug* 

[Gottago]

Throwing warm thoughts your way, and with that positive attitude of yours, it'll be a win, I'm sure!

[Barbara :-)]

Thanks folks!

The other drugs I'm on to counter act the allergic reaction are only steriods and benadryl.   
For me, that's a lot because I rarely even take anything for pain ... I'm one tough cookie! 

My throat is open now (still hurts) but at least I can breathe.   

I am going to try my best to make it into work tomorrow and see how long I can last; I really hate sitting at home.
Even though I'm in pain and my feet feel like they are about to fall off and my knees feel like an elephant (even though I don't have
a clue how an elephant feels!  ) I managed to do two loads of laundry, clean & wash the cement yard from the doggie do, empty the dishwasher,
make Wild Bill & I lunch and take it to him; which he promptly yelled at me for being out of the house  , dealt with junk mail and talked on the phone.

There's a quote something like this: 

A woman is like a teabag; one never knows how strong she is until she's put into hot water.

I think I've been steeping in boiling water for some time now 

[Seumas Dubh]

There's a quote something like this: 

A woman is like a teabag;

A woman is nothing like a teabag.  She doesn't have the equipment.

First, ye need tae be a man.  Then ye need to be able tae wear the kilt.  The "teabag" follows naturally from there.

 

[lil T]

Barb, much love heading your way, every day.  I miss seeing you...I know you'll get thru this.  And its true....this will make you even stronger once you've gotten thru it, and there's NO doubt about that.  We're all with you.  Can't wait til its over and done and you can get back to your daily life without pain.

*BIGHUGS*

[KISSfan94]

Hey Barb! I hope all is well and that you are getting better! You are a fighter and I know you will be ok! 
I wish I could give you a hug right now, so here is a forum hug! ((((((HUGS!!!))))))

[macshorty]

You're one of the strongest women I know Barb.  Laura and I are praying for you.

[Schoko]

Somehow, I knew some fella would step in with a teabag comment...

Barb, had a brain tumor 3 years ago.  I'm thinking about you!  Also, you look fabulous bald, I have a horribly shaped head and I looked like everyone's worst nightmare!  Right you are about wigs being itchy!

[natwilaniwartri]

I think I'll shave my head just to steal the tattoo idea   It's too freakin' hot in Florida anyway   ....and I'm running out of places to hide tats. I can wear a wig to the office 

am sur i find few spots of flesh for more tat for u

[Morven]

am sur i find few spots of flesh for more tat for u

  Oh, I'm sure I could, but I was trying to avoid removal of clothing in order to get the tat, I have a couple of ideasm, though. I'm just about ready for the next one, now I just need the cash 

[Barbara :-)]

Now, remember y'all need to put a little 'BG' somewhere on the tat.   

And we MUST have pix. 

BTW, I'm no longer bald ... I got hair growing back.

And today was my last day of radiation!   

I will update 'soon'.   

[patdusa]

Geez, Barb! I hadn't been catching up lately...glad your last round is over with..You are a WARRIOR woman! AND a beautiful Bald Woman, as well! I will keep you in my prayers.

[nlworley]

Yippee skippee on the treatment being over! Glad to hear it lady.  Hugs.  Nanc.

[Gottago]

I'm glad yer done, Barbara.

I hope that it's truly done and over, you've faught yer battle well. *smile*

[Barbara :-)]

Thanks folks! I realized it's been a few weeks since I was last here ... I went back to work full time and am exhausted when I get home so the internet usually doesn't get visited.  Update is still gonna happen!

[Morven]

Looking good, Barbara

I'm glad you're all done with treatments and back at work. Hope your energy comes back soon and that everything will be back to normal. I hope we can meet in person some day at a Nach event.